I decreed my 'twin' into my life in early 1990. It is a story I
tell in other books but I think even Edward House would have a
hard time topping my gifts. She was the only woman with a brown
card in California when she sat on the Governor's Blue Ribbon
Panel on Prison Reform. A brown card allows you access to all
Penal System buildings. She had once been put in prison because
the FBI could not catch her Mafia bosses who had duped her and
many others in a Huntington Beach land fraud. She would not
testify against them until they were behind bars because the
Mafia goons had threatened to kill her two young daughters. It
is a horror story of corrupt bureaucracy to say the least.
There are many spigots on the societal trough that these pigs
line up at for their piece of the pie. The guards and workers
in the 'system' would not be happy without their free sex like
Linda had to give them in order not to be continuously raped by
the inmates. The money they get from drugs or allowing prisoners
special favors is disgusting as well as illegal. What about the
lawyers passing laws and then benefiting from those laws. The
wardens get lots of 'kickbacks' from suppliers or for 'slave
labor'. Who cares if the prisoners are fed horsemeat or
something worse, instead of the U.S.D.A. beef that was paid
for? The political cronies are happy and the politicians don't
want the electorate to see the people in prisons as victims who
never got a good education or had a fair chance to begin with.
It is a great way to maintain the 'status quo' without having
to produce results that would benefit everyone. The statistics
in Canada show a much better prison system and it seems you
have to go to prison to be taught critical thinking skills here
too.
Jung's theme of the central human problem relating to fear was
something we often agreed upon. She couldn't find a way of
making it work for her in her personal life however. Much as I
was perhaps too extreme in my faith that the 'forces' would
'bless' me or answer my decrees if I was operating with RIGHT
THOUGHT she had a negative anticipatory framework. This lack of
self-esteem in male relations that had included a doctor who
played Russian roulette with her before committing suicide
himself eventually led to her being the 29th victim of the Long
Beach rapist that she fingered and testified against. Her
dedication and social service is still a great inspiration to
me. To say she is a good soul is almost patronizing. To say she
was a great soul would not overstate her inner beauty. I LOVE my
'twin' now as much as I ever did.
There was a passage in Simone Weil's book Gateway to God that
we read together and that she was able to see my favorite
author's meaning through. Krishnamurti and Teilhard de Chardin
say it in fewer words but Simone does a great job on page 39 of
her book:
"To anyone who does actually consent to directing his attention
and love beyond the world, towards the reality that exists
outside the reach of all human faculties, it is given to
succeed in doing so. In that case sooner or later, there
descends upon him a part of the good, which shines through him
upon all that surrounds him.
The combination of these two facts - the longing in the depth
of the heart for absolute good, and the power, though only
latent, of directing attention and love to a reality beyond the
world and of receiving good from it - constitutes a link which
attaches every man without exception to that other reality.
Whoever recognizes that reality recognizes also that link.
Because of it, he holds every human being without any exception
as something sacred to which he is bound to show respect...
Whoever in fact does not feel this respect is alien to that
other reality also."
So many people see their own point of view in these kinds of
comments and don't look deep enough to see everyone else's as
well. Ego often gets in the way of real thinking and
understanding and most people would insist they are respectful
as much as they need to be in order to be linked to the
collective Simone is talking about. Linda and I never disagreed
on 'Brotherhood' issues but I think her fears kept her from the
'blessings' of this 'reality' or world mind. She does so richly
deserve all the happiness in the world but then you could say
that she and I are too outer-directed. Jung correctly noted
that Freud had a similar fear of metaphysics that justified his
always negative view of the occult. I like to think my lady
eventually got past this academic and religious conventionalism
but I do not know it for a fact.
Whatever our disagreements as to the theological underpinning
of the empire-builders or old boy network, we certainly agreed
there was a real threat to personal growth and freedom that
prevails in society. The abuses of power that were evident in
the Page Boy Scandal or in the near demonic rule of J. Edgar
Hoover and so many other instances of this evil ego were often
the topic of our disgust. We could see that 'organized crime'
was less organized and insulated than the bureaucrats and
professional Bars or Colleges that form part of the hierarchy
of the 'old boy network'. She knew full well that the
educational system was not structured to maintain or foster a
'Joy of Learning' that we both had made our life's greatest
pursuit. I guess we found our greatest common inspiration in
Einstein although it was for different perceptions of his deep
meaning. Sometimes there was no difference in the meaning and
though few in this world might imagine it this is the kind of
thing that sets souls who really care, to wanting to know each
other more in every way including the sexual. When Einstein
says (for example) that: "Small is the number of those who see
with their own eyes and feel with their own heart." Linda and I
were really able to accept each other were more than just
'twins' in some psychic or astrological sense, we KNEW the
depth of the others' own commitment to something real and
loving.
If we don't learn about ourselves including our soul, the
sensual and physical nature of humanity, our aura or other
conscious connections then our emotions become unwieldy and
confusing. Brotherhood is all about breaking down the walls
between people or their souls. Respect and inclusiveness or
integration offers more to a whole and complete or
self-realized personhood. These things are so complex and
interwoven yet they do lead inexorably to the true potential of
humanity. I guess my probative and pompous postulating about
these things can get a little tiresome as I proceed much like
The Man of La Mancha to fight never-ending windmills. Einstein
is seldom thought of as a guru or great spiritual person due to
his excellence in other fields. And many are the times when I
quote him or his friend Buckminster Fuller, who worked with him
at Princeton; that I find people willing to suggest it means
nothing that what I say is supported by their thoughts.
Consider seriously the following quote from Einstein and make
your conclusion about my sanity or level of RIGHT THOUGHT!
"How is it possible that this culture-loving era could be so
monstrously amoral? More and more I come to value charity and
love of one's fellow being above everything else... all our
lauded technological progress - our very civilization - is like
an axe in the hand of the pathological criminal."
There are many people who can't even control their own anxious
moments and have never learned the basics of meditation and
diaphragmatic breathing. A great deal of emotional stability
has a connection with the intake of oxygen and its' ability to
lessen stress. Prolonged minor oxygen deprivation can build a
stress level near to panic! Yoga has so much to offer in
connecting the chakra centers and the soul or 'chi' and
'pranha' through our lymph system. Yoga also offers a large
variety of other perspectives in its' different disciplines.
There is the Raja or Fire and Agni Yoga of intellect that
mirrors the Hod of 'The Tree of Life' from Hassidic or
Qabalistic knowledge that I have always enjoyed. Who cannot
benefit from Bhakti and Tantric pursuits in their sexual union
(yoga translated means 'union') and spiritual oneness with the
forces we often deify and give names to, like God? We do our
fellow man a great disservice by encouraging the papacy or
priesthoods control over the matter of our own part in the
Divine Purpose of God. This purpose can be thoroughly
understood by the soul 'within' or the 'I Am' or YHWH
consciousness from the teachings of Jesus.
I love the attitude of Bucky Fuller in relation to thinking and
growing. He said that whenever he felt 'complacent and
satisfied' with an idea that he would 'bite his tongue'. Indeed
we often draw circles around ourselves and I have drawn some
very large circles that prevent me from 'fitting' into normal
society. I continue to observe and simultaneously challenge all
nature of authority in hopes of a more complete understanding
rather than simple ease and happiness. Bucky spoke fluently and
with passion about the consciousness and things like 'creative
realization'. If one is reading him for the first time it is
wise to keep a Dictionary and Thesaurus close to hand.
